precious things

Went to Brighton for just one night with my boy. It was so lovely. We took the bus there which was quick and cheap, had a few beers, went for dinner, walked down by the seafront in the sun and had amazing fresh donuts, through the arcade on the pier (he looked like a child on Christmas, while I was less amused by it), had a beer in the sun, really great dinner later and then we passed out. Ha, we were so exhausted we fell asleep before 12, then straight back to London to work at four.

Work was good yesterday. Except for the manager giving me a bit of a stir, I was so close to have a go at him. I had a few double Jamieson, an absolutely hilarious customer gave me a beer. It was slow. Talby had about 18 double Bundy and Coke, fuck he was smashed, kissing me in front of customers and all. Good fun though. We went home to my place, watched some funny videos online and ate popcorn and had beers.

I've been hanging out with him for almost two weeks straight now and am still not sick of him. It is weird. Usually, I think that more than three hours with one person is plenty. But with him, no. We just have so much fun all the time. It's crazy when you think about it.

Today was my day off. Did laundry and did grocery shopping, catched up on Grey's Anatomy... oh I miss my boy so much! Just wanna go down to the bar and give him a huge hug, but I'd better not, have work in the office tomorrow at nine. Ugh, it is gonna be so boring. We're gonna meet up for lunch though, but then he works at night... ah, miss him so much! Told my mum about him today, she asked if he's coming with me to Sweden in June. I haven't asked him and I won't. It's way too early for that. Perhaps next time. He won't be like Mike though if I do ask him, I know that, which is nice. I am trying to take it slow, but it is hard when I don't want to and he doesn't seem to want to either.

Ah, I like being smittened and crazy about someone.

miracles are to come

Ah, well, all has worked out. Who would've thought? I have a boy, who is amazing and that I am insanely crazy about, so smittened I can't stop smiling and miss him if I don't see him for ten minutes. I have never ever behaved this way about a guy before. It is strange, but so lovely. I hope this feeling will last for a long while.

Other than that, I need money. Asap.

date with the night

Ok, so my stupidity turned out good. Well, so I told "everyone" right, and then he knew. So all I could do in the end was face up to it. Which I did. He didn't say much, then we had one of those awkward kissing moments, which didn't happen. Then yesterday, one of the lads from work, told me that he likes me back. Yay! The other guy and I went out for drinks, heaps of fun and I randomly ran into an old flatmate of mine, very nice indeed. We spoke a lot about the whole situation between me and the guy I like. So I decided to ask him out. Today, in the kitchen, I just couldn't. I left a note on his bed, then went for drinks with this really pretentious guy who basically just pissed me off. I went back, in hope to be able to take the note off his bed and just ask him in person. This is all just so high school. Too late, it was gone and he made his bed. Shit. Anywho, ran into some old friends and had a few beers. Then I actually mustered the courage to ask him out for drinks tomorrow. We are going out tomorrow. So excited. Thing is, between us things are really awkward, so I - being who I am - need to bring it all out in the open. At the same time, we work together, and I don't want to make things weird for anyone at work. It all has to stay sort of a secret.

I am thinking that tomorrow will be nice, perhaps a bit weird, but nice. We will have a few beers, and well... I will do my part, but after that I can't do much. Up till now I have done all the legwork and I am not gonna re-live the whole Mike situation. No fucking way. I will do my part and then I am done with this shit.